Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
Yes, it’s Merry Christmas once more. One of the most magical Holidays, Christmas marks the birth of the great Jesus Christ and is a time for feats, gift-giving, prayers and high-celebration with friends and family. The year has come to a finish and it’s time again to welcome another twelve months.
Yes! January 1 has come once more and brought with it an excuse for us to let our hair down and have a gala time. Make New Year festivities more joyous with your love ones. Spread love and peace, let’s pray for everyone’s health and everyday living, let’s pray for the world’s peace, let’s greet Jesus Christ a Happy Birthday !!!!!
Merry Christmas and a Prosperous New Year!
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A Good Trip and a Bad Trip Night !!!
Dec 11, 2008
A Good Trip side..
I am so excited coz tonight will be the FINAL NIGHT of the candidates for the MR. and MS. SoIT 2008 at the alchemy and i know its gonna be a fun night coz there’ll be a disco fever!! yeah!!! in the morning, MV and i was talking through ym and i gave him some advices and sample questions that might ask to him,, i know they can make it,, !!
I started preparing myself 3pm, i left our home at exactly 4 pm, coz at 5:30, i have to meet my friends in glorietta the first one to arrive was ME, then followed by Kingking and jotham, at the center of Glorietta ma, we saw Jun there .standing beside the christmas tree. we decided to eat at mcdo so that we wont able to feel “starving” in the middle of the program. There, carbon and ace has arrived followed by wena and marlon,, we tease each others dresses like:
Jotham and Trystenn = parang magdedefense/ magboballroom
ace and carbs = parang magrereport sa SS
marlon= the bouncer
Jun = lakwatserong estudyante
me, tolits at wena = The Party People …
Tolits was the last one to arrive so we waited for him at SM Makati/ Park square car park. Then, it’s time to move!!! we rode with carbon’s trooper,,, we laughed and laughed .. carbon was the driver, Jun at the side of the driver seat, in the middle was marlon, wena, me, and ace, at the back was trystenn,jotham and tolitz..
I was the one who’s complaining coz it was so traffic that night,, i want to see the program from the beginning up to the end. but my complains are just a joke hahhaha,,, just to make them laugh..
we had a hard time to find the venue,, til we finally saw the place, at the carpark, we saw mam roda at mam espinosa,,, ayun may kasabay na kme!!!!
so sabay-sabay na kmi pumunta sa venue,, ang nakakatawa nito, we went to its second floor but we saw nothing but construction workers hahahha then we went down while laughing,, what we did, we asked the employees on how to get there at the alchemy and they told us to pass through the starbox so we followed the instruction until we saw the people slightly congested to that area.. we formed lines in front of the elevator then the officers checked our tickets.
there it goes,, we’re already at the party house!!! i dont know how to explain my feeling that mapuans was there and how “sossy” they are!.. kakapasok ko lng ng entrance door sabay natalisod c “gurl” i wont mention her name,, she didn’t noticed the speaker on the floor so i have to help her and i know her poise was lost a little bit hehhehehe,,,
I went to the dressing room of the candidates to check my ORG’s talents,, and there they are,, so pretty and handsome ,, im really proud of them, that time nagflashback sakin lahat nangyari sakin before, during and after the pageant..
it was past 8pm when the program started,, the first part of the program was the introduction dance number of the candidates,, after their performance, nag CR muna ako,, nagulat ako kc dun pla magbibihis ang mga candidates,, so ayun, nagtanung cla kung anu mangyayari sa QA portion, and then i helped MV sa kurbata nya and picture-picture moment,,, heheheh
i was thinking bkt ang tgl ng time nila para magprepare? buti pa cla,, sabagay,, hindi nmn cla gipit sa time unlike before.. luckily, andun mga crush ko hahahha completo na naman gabi ko hahah,, that made me a complete happy,, hehhee wla akong ginawa kundi picture ng picture sa sobrang saya,,,
Then the formal wear started followed by QA portion… compare last year, i noticed that the questions for them are easy to answer swerte!!… actually, if i compare last year to present, mas sosyal cla ngaun pero i thought naka elevate cla ndi pla.. sa dancefloor lng cla and hindi maxado formal ang program unlike before as well as the awarding segment pero maganda ang venue lahat makakapag enjoy tlg,, cla 3 judges lng, kmi ata last year 4-5 judges,, 2 or 3 of them are the organizers of mr. an. ms. cardinal kaya mahigpit ang naging labanan namin dti,,, maganda ang sash nila infairness at madaming awards hahhaha mayaman SC kc ngaun eh hahhaha pero pagdating na pag-oorganize, i like the former SC,, peace out!
Im really happy din kc nanalo ang mga candidates ng YFC,, si MV na Mr. Intelligence, at c Larah na 2nd Runner Up,, Amie and Micky also did their best that’s why we’re really proud … and again,, the Theater Links got again the place but this time First Runner Up!! and ofcourse my dear friend YVONNE who was newly crowned as the MS. SoIT 2008-2009,,, ohah!!! so much reasons to celebrate!,,,
after the pageant,, it’s the battle of the bands na di ko nmn pinakinggan kc wla ako paki jan,, mas gus2 ko mag disco.. hahhaha sayang nga cla kingking at jotham di na nahintay ung disco,, umalis na cla agad,,
after the battle,, yey!!! DISCO_DISCO_FEVER!!!!!!!!! sayawONE na. with wena, tolitz,marlon,yvonne and nico.. hahhaha so much energy… hahhahaha by the way i love night life kc kya i appreciate those things… while dancing xempre di mawawala picture-picture db?,,, hehhehe
past 12mn when tolitz,wena and marlon told me na aalis n daw cla,, kc daw may inuman kina tristan or lynneth so sabi ko ayaw ko pa umalis,, cge una na kau,,, ako nlng d2 mag-1 kaya ko nmn… hehheh after 30 mins.. bumalik dn cla hahahha nagbago daw icp hahhaha aun nakapag sayaw pa kme ng onti,, it was 1 am when the DJ saying thank you mapua,, it’s a sign of ending the event,,,
so we decided to go home na din,, but before that, humabol muna kme sa picture hahaha good thing nakita ko pa crush ko hahaha malupit dn pla sa sayawan un hahah ung isa nmn tahimik lng sa isang tabi hahah,,,
nag elevator na kmi para makababa na,, humirit pa ng picture,, ayun tuloy stranded kme sa elevator!! grabe! hahhaha buti glass ung wall ng elevator kya di nakakatakot para once na sobrang tagal n nmin sa loob, nakakhingi kme ng tulong! halos palu-paluin n nga nmin ung glass tapos ung mga tao na naka stand-by sa tapat ng Starbox pinagtitinginan na kme hahha kc nmn na-stuck kme tlg sa elevator hhaha pero tuloy padin nmn ung pictorial nmin sa loob, odiba! hahahha
finally! nakakbaba din,, since di nmin alam palabas ng place na yun, we decided na magtaxi nlng .. ( wena, me, tolitz and marlon ) ,, ako lng pla pa north samin so binaba ako tapat ng megamall dun na kc ako sasakay ng bus.
eto na Simula ng BAD TRIP!!!…
kukuha sna ako ng pera pang contribute ko sa fare , so i got my wallet at the backpocket of my pants but i remebered that i have 20pesos on my pocketside of my pants so i got my 20 pesos and trying to give it to them for my contribution but they refused to get my money sabi nila,, “cge wag nlng.. okay lng”,,, i forgot that i put my wallet on my lap until na makababa na ko sa megamall,, malamang nasa ilalim na un ng upuan,,, tagal ko nag intay ng bus sa megamall.. di ko man lang napancn n wla n pla wallet ko sa pocket ko,,,
nang makasakay ako ng Bus going to SM fairview, nung sisingilin na ko ng konduktor, di ko makapa ung wallet ko, i started to get nervous and worrying pnu ako makakauwi,, dito ko narealize na kaya pala di kinuha ung contirbution ko sa taxi kc may panggagamitan pla ako nun,, it’s a premonition na dn pla na may mawawala sakin kya nasakin p dn ang 20Php. Yun ang binayad ko sa bus plus additional 15 pesos kc 35 ung pamasahe,,, i thnak god pa dn kc di nya hinayaan na mabigay ko ung 20 pesos ko kc kung sakali di tlg ako makakauwi nun past 1 am p nmn un,,, and one thing more,, my load was less than 5 pesos at di pa ko unli nun buti nlng dn may coins ako sa pouch bag ko kya nakauwi ako,,, while riding at the bus, i try to contact wena para sabihin na ung wallet ko ay nalaglag sa taxi,,, but she didn’t replied,, pati c yvonne cnubukan ko dn i-txt kaso i had a feeling na lobat xa kya d rin xa nag reply at di ako nagkamali sa akala ko,,
It’s 3:00 am nung makarating ako sa NOVA BAYAN, still, worry pa din ako sa wallet ko kc ang laman ng wallet ko is 400+ cash, credit card ko, atm card ko, pics, 2 sun sims, HS id ko, membership card ko sa JPCS, ung ticket na iniipun ko na ksama ko pa mga barkada ko ako ung ex ko,,, ang akin lng, kht di na ibalik ang pera,, ung wallet at laman lng nun sna kc may sentimental value narin un sakin,,,
3:15 am nung makarating ako sa bahay,,, full of worries,, un lng dn ung tym na nagreply c wena sakin,, she kept asking me if im okay, kung nakauwi na ba ako,, i said “yeah nakauwi na ko,, “, she also txted marlon bout this,, marlon said to her na na-doublecheck na nya ung seats ng taxi,, wla nmn daw naiwan dun.. ung ilalim lng ang di maxado,,, kya im really xur na nsa ilalim un ng upuan.,, haiz,,,
Parents ko ang nagbukas ng gate sakin, i know na nag-alala cla sakin kc nga alanganing oras na din kc ako nakarating ng bahay,,, my mom told me that my dad cant sleep and whos waiting for me..
I told to my parents the incident happened after communicating with wena,, i thought im gonna be scolded,, but at their low-toned voice and very relaxed voice, they said,,
“it’s okay son, dumadating tlg sa buhay ng tao ang ganyang pangyayari, it’s a way of learning to be aware and responsible to our actions… atleast nakauwi ka ng wlang nagyayari sayung masama,, okay lng yan ,,, tomorrow papacut ntin ung card mo para di magamit.. enough worries son..”
nakahinga ako dun at touched to their statements,,, naexperience dn kc nila un not exacltly sa taxi but in other vehicles.. so i earned a lot from them and a learned through this experience,, i’m thankful that god guided me the whole night,,, i promise that this wont happen again…
….. naalala nyu b ung last blog ko? ung FORTUNE AND MISFORTUNE..Sabi ko nmn sa inyu mga friends na pag mag fortune na nangyayari sakin may kasunud na misfortune un eh,,, but then again,, if, there’s misfortune, the fortune awaits,, hehhehee …. this is life,,,,
Thanks sa pagtya-tyagang magbasa,,, i love you guys,,,,
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Okay here it goes….
The year 2008 for me is a mix fortune and misfortune, just notice my fortunes and misfortunes. Fortune because i experienced joining a prestigious pageant which is Mr. and Ms. Cardinal 2008, there, i gained friends, i became aware of myself in other words “conscious” , i learned to have what so called “pakikisama”. Though i wasn’t morally supported which i badly needed, it’s fine with me although i felt bad that night at least some people remembered me before the competition started, and congratulated me after which. That’s what i hold up to. The month of feburay was my darkest and colorful month, sounds weird. darkest because that’s the month when i and my partner decided to break up, to end our relatioship due to the non-stop fighting that was feb 2,2008. feb 3 were suppose our monthsarry but that’s life! sometimes we have to suck it up those things happened. The colorful side was that, i experienced modeling for the first time which i really dreamed about since HS.
The month of march was my happiest month but scariest and freaky month, Happiest because i saw my grandma again after 4-5 years ( mother side ). i really missed her,,, we went to bulacan just to visit her and the rest of my relatives. and on the same month, me and my HS ‘kada went to tagaytay but b4 i went to tagaytay on the same day, that’s the start of my scariest side,, well this is my hatest topic! our neighbor - a family friend was massacred !!! i really had a hard time to sleep coz it reminds of that crime. I always sleep 3 am with my lights on, that’s the month i got my first sun sim card coz i hve to talk to anybody before i go to sleep coz im really scared and it freaks me out!!! that freaking feeling reaches until now when the topic goes to any form of crime. i was so afraid in the whole month of april and may coz i cant get over that fucking thoughts.
Last June, the mapua soit dept. held a post-summer outing at 8 waves. I’m really excited coz i never expected that it could be possible to implement such idea of my fellow students. And it gave me the thoughts that it could also be possible that my CRUSHes will be there hahaha i dont care about the payment, i care about the experiences which will never be forgoten.
The first sem of the school year is my hatest sem coz i feel that it’s too long. But im excited coz new mapua students was born, meaning many froshies hehehe,,, but i feel sad at the same time coz one of my friend decided to change his course so he have change his school location but he’s still mapuan ( he’s now in intra ). Another disaster is our thesis,, we’re not able to finish it until now.. we really had a hard time.
This 2nd term, new friends of mine came into my life because of the annual search for the Mr. and Ms. SoIT 2009 for the the month of october. Our organization ( YFC ) handles 2 pairs so we have to support them all the way lolz… as a past runner-up winner, i understand their feelings and their hard times that’s why i’m helping them when they need my help coz i dont want them to feel what i felt last year. I want them to remember me as a good person as they call me “KUYA JAKE”. I also give my support to my friend from the org of ACM and now some people said that im the manager of my friend hahaha,,, i dont know where did the get that. hahaha. Same month when my ‘kadas and i, alone, had its misunderstanding for 3 weeks …i think,!!! , so.. no talks at all.
Last month (NOvember), someone wants to see me falling down - a fellow mapuan. He/she keep commenting about everything- the pageant, people around me, actions, etc,, he’s /she’s so pathetic,,, but i know that time will come that the things he does to me will happen to her/his love one. This month also is one of my happy month coz the eggs of my hen were hatched,, i expect it to be hatched on nov 7 but it was hatched nov 4,,, i have now 6 chicks in in the house…
These few days, some people keep asking me if im all right,, coz there are rumors that i was a victim of an accident and i am comatose,,, i just said NO! im fine and alive!!…
This month of december,, one of my chick was lost,, i dont know why,, i think that chick got its chance to escape from the cage, ..
inspite of that… actually yesterday ( dec 4,2008). we visited my grandma in bulacan just me and my mom. that’s why im happy again,, i noticed that most of the people there were looking at me i dont know why,,, girls were smiling at me as well as the gays, boys were staring at me, older ones also staring, smiling, and praising me when they have the chance to talk to my auntie and my mom. I think they appreciate my visitation there,,,
well, that was some of my highlight events in my life.. not all the time you’ll have your fortunes,, misfortunes may come into your way but i always that remember that once the misfortunes comes my way, the FORTUNES awaits.
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Nov, 14 , 2008
i woke up 4:10 am kc may klase daw kme sa soft. eng. at 7:30 am so ayun pasok ako ng maaga baka sakaling may plus points ulit hahhaha,, unfortunately, hndi dumating si sir so ayun ang aga-aga tambay kme .. dumating sa school si sir at exactly 9 am na kmusta nmn un? lolz, so tinanung ko lng c sir kung may klase ba sa OS o wla,, sabi ni sir meron daw,, pero gus2 ko wlang klase eh so kinulit ko nlng si sir kaya umakyat kme sa faculty para tanungin c sir kung 2loy din b ang quiz4 nmin on monday sa soft eng., ofcourse sir answered us ” no, i’ll be discussing the rest of the chapters” … yes! ang saya-saya… since we’re in the faculty, i’ts my chance again to ask my same professor in soft. eng and OS no other than sir ballera if we will be having classes today so he replied ” nagdedecide pa nga ako eh, cnu b klase ko d2 s OS “,,, ako lng pla ung may OS dun so ako lng ung tumaas ng kamay,.. sabi ni sir ” anu b yn kw lng pla” hahaah edi nag iicp c sir kung meron b o wla sabay sabi ni mam abisado kay sir,, ” anu kya wla n cla klase plus ten nlng pag punta sa intra” pa-joke na cnbi ni mam. kaya ayun sabi sakin ni sir.. “cge n nga, exercise your freedom, iho!” waaaa hahahah com’on,,,, hahaha
tambay lng kme sa lobby ( mary, rowena, ako, ric, cha ) kwentuhan at tawanan,,, kino-contact nmin c aiza bout sa panunuorinn nmin n concert,, until 11 am nakatambay kme sa lobby,, so me, rowena, cha, ric went to aiza’s unit kc sabay-sabay kme punta sa manila… c mary bumalik muna sa kanila para magpadentista…
from pasong tamo - gil puyat LRT then gil puyat LRT - SM mnla jeep lng cnakyan nmin haiz.. dyahe,,, ang init, ang traffic xemay! buti nlng may ale na sumakay sa jip n may dalang sang katerbang rabbit hahahha naaliw kme kc ang cute nila hahahhaa…
Sa SM manila, kumain muna kmi sa food court, umutang muna ako kay cha ng 100 pesos kc kukulangin money ko kc di pa ko nakakapag withdraw na di ko nmn mahanap ung machine for BPI xemay,,, nasa sm manila rin pla ung crush ko kaya aun,, kilig nnmn ako hahahhaha
after nmin kumaen.. naghanap kme ng iPhone case ni aiz,, di ko alam kung may nahanap cla hehe,, then after nun,, 3pm punta na kme sa intra mapua… sakto lng pera ko pang concert at pang kain kya wla n q pangload..
pagdating nmin dun xempre ang init at ala mgwa,,, so nagpictorial muna cla kay don thomas mapua hahahah,, kelangan ng pro0f kc ni rowena eh hhhahaa,,, so hinintay nlng nmin c mary hanggang sa makadating para makabili ng ticket,, c rowena at cha, umuwi n kc di cla manunuod ng concert ,, si ric ako aiz at mary lng ang manunuod,,,
sa concert,,, grabe ang energy ng tao nanghina ako hahhahaaha ang saya-saya.. people are squealing ang screaming to the bands,,, whew… nasa harapin kme saya we enjoyed it soo much,,, astig lht ng banda,,, nakakapaghina hahhahah spongecola ang highlight band and take note pinangunahan ko ang pag appear kay Yael ( vocalist ng spongecola) hahha kya ginaya na ko ng iba hahahha xempre okay lng un,,, gnun nmn tlg dpt,,, nakaktawa c aiz at mary umiinom b nmn ng tubig c yael kukunin b nmn nila ung bote agad,,, hahhaha hahhaha nakakatuwa lht cla,,, ako nmn pag may hinahagis na freebies, mega dive ako sa sahig hahahaha tanung mu kay mary aiz at ric kung cnu tgakuha ng freebies… hahahh
past 12 am n natapos we’re tired, thirsty, hungry pero sulit tlg ang 250 na bayad,,, kudos! uwian na,,,, after 3 years ngaun nlng ulit ako nanuod ng banda sa mapua,, i remember first year pa ko nun s mapua lagi ako present s concerts,,, kht mag-isa lng ako,,, kya ang saya ko ng nalaman ko ng c mary, aiz at ric ay game sa mga ganyan,,, i’m happy that i finally found those people who does the things i do. miz that nyt,
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Magpapaka bato…
cguro nagtataka kau kung bakit “magpapaka-bato”,, ofcourse anu p b tinutukoy nyan,, edi love life,,, 8 months na kong wlang ka-relasyon,,, yeah u read it right!,, sa loob ng 8 months n yun, i fell in love again pero sa skulmate ko but im afraid in commitments so auq muna,,, parang gusto ko na nga lng wag na ma-inlove eh,, traumatized ata ako?? sa last relationship ko,,, lahat na inicp ko,,,
like: magsuicide, mgalit ng sobra-sobra, magpatawad, 4get my studies, 4get lovelife, 4get friendship, etc..
but i have to be strong coz i wanted to. Alam kong mali but sometimes i ask myself why sometimes life is so unfair? pero ako dn ang nakasagut nyan,,, so i strongly hold on to god at libangin ang sarili ko to relieve the pain. I dont close my door kung may taong magmamahal ulit sakin ,,, pero sana kung meron man, sna no pain anymore na,,
kung makikipag-balikan ang ex ko or kung ako ang makikipabalikan sa knya,,, why not,,, mahal ko pa dn xa at d na mawawala un,,, naka-tato na un sakin. Pero asa pa ko kc ang hirap nya abutin now as if ako lang ang may kasalan. hay,, life cant wait..(sunsilk?) hahhahhaha
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it’s 8:33 am kasalukuyang nasa jeep ako ng nagtxt c ronnel sa akin at nagtanung
Ronnel: " Go0d m0rning. Jhake, R0nnel ‘to, nasa scho0L knb?"
Jhake: i replied " nasa byahe plng aq nova byn"
Ronnel: " hehe… tara saBay tayo?"
Jhake: "cge q. ave"
Ronnel: "ok kita.kits. Mga 9:15, or 9:30 dun na me. hehe..ingatz "
Ronnel: "promise d n q malelate"
Ronnel: "san kna Jhake? hrap sumakay"
Jhake: " kht pa late ka ng onti ok lng haba pila d2 eh".
…. after a long travel… sa mrt north ako nakababa kc nmn sa ibang terminal ako sumakay. eh ang usapan is q. ave. kaya nilakad ko mula north hanggang q. ave at nalaman ko na malapit lng pla un hahaha.. when i got there.. i immediately txted him..
Jhake: Ui d2 na ko.. sa Hen Lin na tau kita sa gilid ng escalator ng mrt q.ave station.
…. sabay ang hirit ni ronnel..
Ronnel: "Jhake, una kna. mali ata 2ng nasakyan ko. sm north. hay…sorRy Jhake! isa kang 2nay na kabigan! Ingat ka Jhake.
…. nambola pa hahahaha
Jhake: "okie lng cge"
…. humirit n2mn….
Ronnel: "Jhake san kna? d2 na ko north pasakay na"
Jhake: " d2 q sa loob ng q. ave station hintay tren"
Ronnel: " Jhake, sa last tren ka sakay… Wala pa ako d2 sa parating na tren hunt. Puno EH… nxt train k nalang… Kita tau sa last na pnto.
Jhake: " Baka d p nga ko makasaka dmi tao d2 eh.."
…. pagdating ng tren… nakipag siksikan tlg ako hahah gotcha buti nakatingin xa sa labas at nagkita na kmi dun… until makarating sa buendia and then to school… late na kme.,.. hhahaha it’s 10:47 am.
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Uwian na… 6pm kasabay ko sana c Henna sa mrt. nung nasa escalator na kmi pababa, nakilala ko ung friend ko na paakyat ng escalator,,
Jhake: "BECKY????"
Becky: "waaaa jhake… helloo "
Jhake: sabi ko "wait lng akyat uli ako,, waaaaa"
nagpaalam nlng ako ng Henna sabi ko….
Jhake:" cge una k n huh xenxa na,,,"
aun akyat uli ako tapos aun cgawan s mrt tinginan ang mga tao hahahah anyway c becky po ay close friend ko Since HS kme… we missed each other tlg.. so tinanong ko xa…
Jhake: " san xa patungo ?"
Becky: sabi nya "sa main office ng starbucks "
….kc may work na xa… so sabi ko s
Jhake: "sama ako para khit papano may bonding tau"
… kc nmn un nlng un tym n nagkita ulit kme,,, so aun kwentuhan 2 d max! bout lovelife, friends etc,,, haizz tgl din nmin nag intay sa special person na iniintay nmin ah hahahahha… after that alis n kme… punta n kme mrt at sumakay na din… sa mrt dmi dn nmin napag usapan,, until tumawag ung stalker kong third sex sa cp ko,,, puro kasinungalingan n nga lng pinagsasabi ko…
Jhake: "nasa byahe kme ng friend ko.." at sabi ko pa "bababa na kme"
… khit di pa nmn hahahah … 2 nmn c becky ibubuking pa ko sabihin b nmn
Becky: " hndi p tau bababa"
buti nlng di narinig ng kausap ko hahaha binaba ko n nga lng ung fone kc auq xa kausap hahaha sama ko b? hahaha
ng nasa q.ave na kme… wlang fx na maabangan,,, sabi ko pbb house nandun lng sa likod ng abs-cbn,., aun hanggang s nagkayayaan na hanapin ang bahay ni kuya hahahahah hanggang sa natunton nmin hahaha hay… sarap pagmasdan haha naabutan nmin ung ex-housem8 na c jeriel na nagbebenta ng dyed shirt.. so after 20 mins.. umalis n din kme walking trip n2mn kme hahaha,,, until sa makasakay n kme sa fx n sobrang init sa loob…! inis… nauna bumaba ng fx c becky kc commonwelth lng xa,,, so ako loner n ulit hehe nagbarbeque nlng ako pagdating sa nova bayan aahha"….. hanggang 11 pm ng gabi magkatxt kme pero ako nmn nauna magpaalam kc nakaligo na ko at antok n din ako,,,
… yan po ang nangyari sakin .. (april 16 2008)
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last night (dec 30) laking gulat ko ng bigla xang nag txt sa akin sabi nya…..
" sorry sa gingwa q sau ngaun,, d lng kita mhrap s ngwa qng kslnan sau, inaaus q lng lht kya q t0h nggwa,,"
sorry?? sa 22o lng d q alam ang mararamdaman ko nung point na un pero cnbi ko nlng s knya na "masaya na rin ako dhil mali ang iniicp ko bout sau" dhil since dec. 21 d n xa nagtetxt sakin.
inamin nya sa akin na nagkaroon xa ng iba since september at in short "2 time" nakipag break daw xa nung dec. 21. sabi nya na alam nya na mali ung relationship na un at nadala lng xa s sweet talks nila..
ang akin lng, kung nadala lng xa sa kay number 2 bkit ang paki2tungo nya sa akin ay apektado na rin ? hndi nya masagot ang tanung ko kung mahal nya ba o hndi dahil kung hndi nya ito mahal , hndi xa magkakaganyan.. tinanong ko kung mahal nya ba ako ang sagot nya,,
" d q lam,,"
tinanong ko kung "d k b makapag move-on sa kanya?" ang sagot nya..
"wlang ikakamove-on dahil nahihiya lng ako sa nagawa ko"
ngaun d n nmn xa nagtetext… ano? nahihiya na naman xa? ako n nga lng ang nagtetext sa kanya sa kabila ng PANLOLOKO nya… alam nmn nya na pinatawad ko n xa agad pero bakit ganyan? parang apektado pa rin xa kay number 2? nadala ka lang ba talaga? o pati damdamin mo nadala na rin?
kung mas mahal nya c number 2, better na sabihin n nya sna ngayon dahil ako lagi ang nagmumukhang tanga!
sa conflict na nangyari samin before (nov), ngwa nya ko i-delete sa friendster pati ung first messages namin,,, that time nga ok lng sa knya n mwala ako sa kanya kc pla may number 2 nmn kaya ok lng n maghiwalay kme! pero that time hndi ko alam na may number 2. tanga ko lng kc d k naicp na may number 2 n pla xa,,, dahil binigyan ko xa ng benefit of the doubt.
itong mga nakaraan na araw, kasalukuyang natataranta ako dahil di xa naki2pag communicate sa akin, kung cnu2 na ang mga nakakausap kong kaibigan about sa nararamdaman ko! ngawa ko nga tumawag sa knila kaso natakot ako sa parents nya kaya di ko n tinuloy. d ko xa matawagan at matext man lng dahil wala nmn ako napapala!!! pag-aalala lng lagi.. bakit pag kailangan ko xa lagi xang wala?? lalo na nung kakatapos ko lng operahan kailangn ko xa that time! pero nasan xa nug oras na un? nagsasarili?
people, diba pag napatawad ka ng mahal mo sa ngwa mong kasalan diba relief yun? pero bkit patuloy pa rin xang nag papaapekto gayong nadala lng xa sa taong yun? paano kaya nya inaayos ang ngwa nyang kasalan sa akin at kay number 2 kung alam nmn nya na napatawad ko xa at handa ko xa tulungan sa problema?
sa totoo lng ako dpt ang hndi naki2pag usap s kanya sa kabila ng ginwa nya sakin pero inintindi ko nlng xa kaya napatawad ko xa agad.. bkit ako ang lalapit? .., malapit na ang first anniversary namin pero sa nakikita ko mukhang malabo na mangyari un,.
tulad ngaun di n nmn xa nagtetext or co-communicate sakin., masasabi nyo bang may pag-asa pang masave ang relationship? kung meron mang taong dapat nagsalba ng relasyong ito nararapat sya ang gumawa ng hakbang dahil ako ginawa ko na ang part ko pero patuloy pa rin xang mailap sa tanung ko lalo na sa akin..,
kung may pagkukulang man ako sa kanya alam nmn nya pinupunan ko na ito at humingi n ko ng tawad sa knya - ano/sino b ang hanap nya?? anong pag-aayos ang ginagawa nya? may naayos ba? kay number 2 lang yata xa naki2pag-ayos pero sakin? ano? sorry?? un lng b un?
*** mahirap kasi sau mahilig ka gumawa ng problema na hindi mo namn kayang ayusin.
napatawad ko nga xa pero di ko ginaganrantiya na magi2ng kami pa,, sa tingin ko pag-iicpan ko muna…
Uncategorized | Comment (0)“nag-iba ang ihip ng hangin”
minsan sa isang espesyal na araw pa dumarating ang problema! biglang nag-iba ang ihip ng hangin ng isang araw di na xa nagtetext o nagrereply sa text ko kahit sagot sa twg ko di n nya cnsgot at ngayon not active na ang sim nya!
* Hndi ako nagagalit sayo pero sana sabihin mo sa akin kung anu ang dinadamdam mo but i hope in time masabi mo sa akin…
hinintay ko pa nmn ang araw na ‘to dahil isang taon na tau magkakilala,,, i want you to know that i’m still here… kung may pagbabago man, just tell me.
haiz,, i thought that this will be one of my happiest christmas,, hndi pla,,, i failed to believe. I dont believe na may ngwa akong mali i know it’s about you and your family and im praying na ma-settle nyu na yan lalo na’t christmas! gus2 ko lng malaman mo na naninibago talaga ako sayo.. hope oneday makapag-usap tau about this,
i dont wanna greet you a"merry christmas" because i know we’re both in the middle of loneliness,,, so just take care and god bless!
Uncategorized | Comment (0)“thanks mom”
(dec.21)
my mom and i went to the dentist to have an schedule for the operation para sakin on dec 22. But before mafinalize and desisyon, kelangan pa ng bloodtime ko para malaman kung bleeder ako o hinde so pumunta kmi ng mom ko sa isang hospital to know my bloodtime so ayun, bleeder pala ako! pagkaalis namin ng hospital ng mom ko, i immediately texted my specialfriend sabi ko bukas pwd na ako operahan! pero di na xa nagreply since that day.
after that, bumalik kami ng mom ko sa dentist ko so ayun ready na ko for tom.
(dec22)
haiz… this is it! hahaha actually excited ako hahahha pero parusa nmn! soft diet ako huhuhu panu sa christmas ko! so until now nagsa-suffer ako ngaun huhuhuhu T_T!
pero i want to thank my mom kasi napaka supportive nya sa akin lalo kahit walang-wala kami ngaun handa parin xa magbigay para sakin lalo na sa mr. cardinal na sobra ang gagatusin namin!
I love you mom and dad!
Uncategorized | Comment (0)sEnTi m0de!!!
Alone
I hear the ticking of the clock
I’m lying here the room’s pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won’t end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
You don’t know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don’t know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone.
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